Last night was rough. I tossed and turned, sweaty, achy and frustrated that my legs had little room to stretch with my cat hogging the bed. Normally, even this mild discomfort, would make my nervous system freak out! When I am uncomfortable, I’d normally go into panic and fix it mode. My form of control … More What if?
“It’s been over a decade since I ended my long-term affair yet I could feel the trauma of living that lie like it was happening right now.” I had a rare dream about James last night. Probably because he popped up in my email by some sort of spam from his contact list. What was … More Trauma and 13 Years Later
As I embark on this next journey in my life, I can’t help but think about what it means, or what it should mean to be in a relationship. Marriage isn’t two souls becoming one. We are already one with everyone (That is my spiritual belief anyway). It isn’t about owning someone as in, I … More The Meaning of Relationships
I am currently reading Deepak Chopra’s, “The Book of Secrets.” This excerpt stuck out to me today: Pitfalls of the Seeker: 1. Knowing where you are going. 2. Struggling to get there. 3. Using someone else’s map. 4. Working to improve yourself. 5. Setting a time table. 6. Waiting for a miracle. This is exactly … More Pitfalls of the Seeker
I love being under water. The weightlessness. All sounds fade away. My entire body is being touched all at once by the softness of the water. It’s such a strange feeling because when you are fully submerged, you don’t feel wet. It’s just comfort, like a warm cozy blanket. The few seconds of time that … More Silence
On Monday I wrote a post entitled, “Letting Go.” The focus was on letting go of destructive behavioral patterns more than attachments to physical things. However, later that day as I was driving in my car, I was listening to the book on CD, You Are Here by Thich Nhat Hanh and none to my surprise, … More Attachments
As I begin a new chapter of sorts in my life, the following three words have been on my mind: Attachments Control Distractions I am slowly learning that I can have a preference for the way I would like things to happen, but I must avoid an attachment to it. What I want and what … More Letting Go
Do I have a dual personality? Why is it on some days I feel like I can conquer the world? I go about my day with confidence and purpose. Things just fall into place. Problems, schroblems! There are no problems. Life is beautiful. Everyone is beautiful! Look at the sky…it’s glorious! My hair looks fan-freakin’-tastic … More Are you talkin’ to me?
I woke up yesterday morning not feeling the greatest. I felt overwhelmed and underwhelmed with life all at the same time. I am quite confident that anyone with a pulse has been there. With so many projects in the works and not sure any of it is taking me anywhere, I felt stuck in the … More Embracing a Bad Day
Just days ago, I was on a trip like no other trip. It was not a vacation where we run to and fro collecting as many sites and experiences as possible, but rather an exploration and awakening of my soul. A meditation retreat. A place where I found safe haven, love and life-long friends. It … More It was easy there.