Before my husband and I hang the phone, we always say, I love you. We will be divorced in June. We do genuinely love one another and yet we also know that we are better as friends. Maybe it’s our age and each of us already having one difficult divorce under our belt that has … More Better friends
Sometimes…sometimes after making a decision to do something because you can not live another moment without making that decision, you crack. Your nervous system goes on the fritz when the reality of your audible words set in; you scramble to undo it, to bring everything back to the way it was. To the safe place … More The Aftermath
My little voice inside told me she would guide me. She was so loud and clear on what felt like my 99th dark night of the soul that there was no denying it. The impact was visceral and I reveled in the temporary reprieve it gave my nervous system. This reprieve allowed me to drop, … More Decisions, decisions, decisions…
I recently had a furniture repair man at the house. He asked me some questions and I told him that time wasn’t an issue because I wouldn’t be moving this piece until next year. He continued to ask me the same question and I said, “Like I said, I don’t need this for awhile.” He responded, … More I wasn’t really listening.
“It’s been over a decade since I ended my long-term affair yet I could feel the trauma of living that lie like it was happening right now.” I had a rare dream about James last night. Probably because he popped up in my email by some sort of spam from his contact list. What was … More Trauma and 13 Years Later
If you’ve been following my story, you may be wondering what happened with the person that literally changed the course of my life. The time between the retreat, my divorce and a few years into being single, our relationship became fragmented, diluted. It’s not surprising as I had changed the playing field, thus the rules … More James
A continuation from The Invitation It’s been a very long time since the post above. There are 10 excuses why I stopped, none of them good really. I feel very emotional as I sit here and begin to pick up where I left off. It’s time to finish my story. I will do my best … More The Retreat
As I embark on this next journey in my life, I can’t help but think about what it means, or what it should mean to be in a relationship. Marriage isn’t two souls becoming one. We are already one with everyone (That is my spiritual belief anyway). It isn’t about owning someone as in, I … More The Meaning of Relationships
A continuation from A Book Is All It Took. I could not believe that my pithy email had been read by a real live person and that they were reaching out to me! I called the woman back who had left the message. She simply said that the author would like to have me on … More The Invitation
Just days ago, I was on a trip like no other trip. It was not a vacation where we run to and fro collecting as many sites and experiences as possible, but rather an exploration and awakening of my soul. A meditation retreat. A place where I found safe haven, love and life-long friends. It … More It was easy there.