A F**k It List?

I just read a little snip-it about Joan Rivers doing a F–k It List, as opposed to the popular Bucket List.  I think this is genius!  She feels that at her age, just go for it.  But I say, at any age, we should just go for it!

This naughty but nice list is exactly what I have been attempting to do this year.  I have passed up so many opportunities and dismissed so many ideas in my life because I was always too afraid to fail!  My whole life I have always taken the safe bet.  I made choices based on what I knew I could do, and not just do, do really well.  My motto was to be the best or why bother.  Yes, I know that is ridiculous; it comes from being a pure-bred perfectionist.

By the end of 2013 I came to hate the meaningless work I was doing.  My husband and I worked together every day as well, and that wasn’t working out either.  Thankfully, getting out of it was the easy part, it was letting go that was the hard part.  I admit I like to control things and I have a hard time trusting people.  I didn’t want to pass my work to someone else.  When I realized I needed to put trust in other people and have faith that my letting go would benefit everyone, it was like a hundred pound weight had been lifted.  Seriously, angels were singing!  It was glorious!

The next hard part was figuring out what I wanted to do.  There I was on the verge of a new year, 42 years old, and still did not know what I wanted to do when I grew up.  So, I just let it go.  I surrendered and I put it out to the universe.  With tears pouring down my face, I asked for guidance.  I asked for a clear picture of what I am to do.  For the first time ever, I wasn’t worried.  I knew it would come.

And it did.

And for the first time in my life, I am saying, “F–K IT!”

Welcome to #1 on my list:  Start a blog and write, write, write. 


4 thoughts on “A F**k It List?

  1. I hate that we’re so conditioned to believe that we need to know what we want to ‘do’ with our lives. Why can’t it be enough to live a fulfilling day at a time? Why isn’t it enough for people around us that we are happy just being us, and why do we have to perpetually conform to so many definitions and standards and boundaries?

    Love the idea of the f**k-it list!

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