Last night was rough. I tossed and turned, sweaty, achy and frustrated that my legs had little room to stretch with my cat hogging the bed. Normally, even this mild discomfort, would make my nervous system freak out! When I am uncomfortable, I’d normally go into panic and fix it mode. My form of control … More What if?
I answered the call to Yellowstone and back. Back. That’s where I was in late 2020. Back home after the adventure of a lifetime trying to figure out what the hell it all meant. What was the purpose of that undeniable call just to be back in the same worn-out situation of my marriage? All … More The Muck and the Mire
“I clung to anything different than the constant drone of my fears and a life of groundhog days.” “I CAN’T FUCKING DO THIS!” That’s me flat on my back screaming with my arms and legs flailing about like a dying cockroach somewhere in the Pyrenees Mountains of France, or maybe Spain. I’m not sure I … More Redefining Adventure: Running Away to Healing
I am currently reading Deepak Chopra’s, “The Book of Secrets.” This excerpt stuck out to me today: Pitfalls of the Seeker: 1. Knowing where you are going. 2. Struggling to get there. 3. Using someone else’s map. 4. Working to improve yourself. 5. Setting a time table. 6. Waiting for a miracle. This is exactly … More Pitfalls of the Seeker
I love being under water. The weightlessness. All sounds fade away. My entire body is being touched all at once by the softness of the water. It’s such a strange feeling because when you are fully submerged, you don’t feel wet. It’s just comfort, like a warm cozy blanket. The few seconds of time that … More Silence
A continuation from A Book Is All It Took. I could not believe that my pithy email had been read by a real live person and that they were reaching out to me! I called the woman back who had left the message. She simply said that the author would like to have me on … More The Invitation
Just days ago, I was on a trip like no other trip. It was not a vacation where we run to and fro collecting as many sites and experiences as possible, but rather an exploration and awakening of my soul. A meditation retreat. A place where I found safe haven, love and life-long friends. It … More It was easy there.
[Here in my little not-so-private space, I have ever-so-slowly been sharing my story of divorce. Part One left off with my husband’s discovery of my affair and my struggles with the stress of it all.] I have spent a good amount of time on the St. Clair river. Enormous freighters frequently pass through its deep … More Fear Becomes Me, Part Two
The Secret Of Life. This short little video above is about life, but instead, it really made me think about death. As a young child I had an abnormal fear of death. I remember several occasions when I was very young, laying awake at night in a layer of sweat worrying about dying. These episodes … More How are you going to go out?
How often do we talk about something we are really happy about and then in the same breath we complain about something else? How often do our wheels spin on all our problems and “To do” lists instead of what is going great? How often do we celebrate the good things, compared to complaining about … More When what is, is enough.